It feels an age since I last wrote on here. I’ve been putting pen to paper quite a bit lately, but I’ve not been able to then make it digital. It has felt too fake. Too forced. Now though, I feel I have something to say.
I watched The Circle on Netflix last night. It’s a fantastic film in theory, although I feel it got a tad lost in translation. There was something about it that just didn’t fit properly and unfortunately, that something was quite a major part. I still thoroughly enjoyed it though, and would even consider watching it again. The main thing that has stayed with me, is the discussion of accountability. How we tend to be our worst selves when people aren’t watching, and yet we shine when people are. This part of the film really inspired me and made me think about my life and what I’m doing with it. At the moment, the answer is nothing. I am in limbo and I have been for a while, and it’s all my fault. It’s down to me not doing anything to better myself or reach my goals, and I have nobody else to blame.
It’s not uncommon though. It’s like having a deadline for a piece of homework or coursework at school. A great number of people will leave it to the last minute, and many of them are genuinely more productive that way. They might get a better grade than if they had worked on it over a longer period of time. I spoke to someone once before (I can’t remember who) about the psychological process behind this. It’s so legit that it even has a proper name.
There are many things in our lives, both good and bad, which we need to be held accountable for. It’s how we thrive, and how we learn. I feel that I need to make that step in order to better myself and improve things for myself and my family. More importantly, right in this moment I actually feel ready to make that step.
Bring it on!